Sometimes, I just don't know anymore. But then, did I actually know anything to begin with? Probably not. Sometimes, I just think I know or can do so much. And then it's now when I realize how little I actually know or can do that it hits me.

Pride goes before destruction,
  a haughty spirit before a fall.
Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed
  than to share plunder with the proud.

But by now, the fall already hurts.

I used to think that the song Falling for the First Time by the Barenaked Ladies was about falling in love. But I think now that it's not. To me, it's maybe not even about "love" in that sense at all, whether falling in or out. Either way, I invite you to have a listen and make of it what you will...

Barenaked Ladies - Falling for the First Time

I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me.
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so chilled, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anything plain can be lovely, anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction, what if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind