... Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

While this is only the end of Paul's prayer for the Ephesians, I am always really struck by the phrase, "immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine."

In a way, it has been something that has been characteristic of a lot of things I have seen over the past year. In some sense, I am feeling humbled by how amazing God is and how silly I am to think that I know anything at all.

Last weekend was the UWCCF winter retreat. Although I missed it since I am currently in Singapore, discussion regarding its planning began in late 2008, while I was still in Canada. In particular, the inevitable topic of the speaker came up again. Some how, the speaker I had originally invited to the 2008 fall retreat became a possible choice again.

In many ways, I didn't know what to think. I didn't have much of an opinion. I think by then, I had sorted out some of the initial worries I had in August 2008. But at the same time, I didn't want to make a decision regarding it either way. Of course though, me being the only person personally knowing the speaker, I had to make some kind of recommendation.

Regardless of whether or not my recommendation affected the decision making process or not, the speaker was invited to the retreat, and brought a team up from my home church to conduct the retreat.

And surely, when people gather to seek God's face, He meets them powerfully and does immeasurably more than one could ever ask for or imagine.

I heard a few initial testimonies regarding people's experiences at the retreat (if you have are a UWCCF member and haven't done so yet, please do register for our forums and check out the testimonies thread). From these testimonies, it was clear people were set free from past afflictions and given a renewed sense of God's love for them. I can't quite put it into words - the testimonies speak for themselves. But healing took place and it sounds like people were deeply moved.

At hearing this, I was very excited for UWCCF. The issue of healing and deliverance has been something on my mind for UWCCF, but I just never knew how to bring it up. So in the end, I'm really glad that healing took place.

In addition to the excitement, I also had some questions and slight frustration with myself regarding the whole fall retreat ordeal. I began to question myself if I had truly done the right thing to switch speakers last minute. Was I getting in the way of what God wanted to bring into UWCCF?

I spoke to a few people about it initially, ranging from my mom, to a friend from my home church who helped conduct the winter retreat, to a friend from UWCCF not aware of the situation that occurred before the fall retreat.

All of them were somewhat confident that it was for the better. But of course, one can only speculate.

I spoke to the current UWCCF vice chair for a bit about the retreat, and he shared with me a bit more detail about the retreat. As he shared, I was encouraged and moved. I was truly amazed at once again, how God had truly come through and did what He wanted. He met His people. Again, immeasurably more than I could ever ask for or imagine.

So in the end, I still don't know whether or not I had made the right decision earlier in August 2008. All I do know though is that UWCCF is on an exciting path. And all I know is that I think I should be greatly humbled by this whole series of events.

For now I can truly say that it was not me who brought change to UWCCF, but God. If I had on my own volition brought the team from my church to UWCCF and had an amazing retreat as a result, I think that I may have become prideful. So instead, perhaps it was truly for the better that my only role in this whole thing was to open communication between my church and UWCCF. After that, I have no part. God met people on His own. It was not because I invited my church to come. It was because God always does immeasurably more than one could ever ask for or imagine.

Did I screw up? Maybe, maybe not. All I know is that God still worked out everything for His glory.

I pray that I would continue to seek after God's heart and not be swayed by the thoughts and fears of my flesh.